Saturday, December 11, 2010 | 3:49 PM
I still exist – and I haven’t forgotten you.
I’ve gotten out of the habit of updating anyone on how I’ve been doing. The time goes so quickly and although we are extremely busy and much has happened, we just keep ploughing ahead with a steady rhythm that I take it for granted that anything has actually happened because I still feel like life is very much the same as I remember it being a week, two weeks, or two months ago.And then, on top of having to re-train myself to spend time reading and writing on the computer – something I’m doing rather reluctantly (it was so nice to find myself with so much more time for other things when using the internet wasn’t an option) – I am also having to figure out what my blog means to me now i.e. who my audience is and what I want to write to them.
Things have changed though, as they always do when I find myself in a full-fledged relationship. All my thoughts, spiritual, emotional, intellectual, positive or negative in nature, I have been able to share with the man that I am in love with, leaving little that I feel I have to share with the world. And strangely, I’m finding myself much more private of a person. I have posted a few private posts in times of high drama and I wonder if it causes this blog to lose its purpose and meaning. I do want this to continue to be a place where I can learn openly about myself so that perhaps someone else might learn something from me, so here I am again, trying to figure out what I should write to make up for my absence.
Labels: everyday nothings